Taking My Life Back
Hello all, I cannot think of a better way than to announce my plans to hike the Appalachian Trail in 2018. What can I say, 2016 and 2017 have been a pretty rough couple of years for me health-wise. I have kept most of this private since doctors really did not know what was wrong with me. Three weeks ago I was “officially” diagnosed by a Rheumatologist with Fibromyalgia, it seems funny but we were never so grateful for a diagnosis, even if the diagnosis sucked. Based upon the never-ending tests that pointed to this disease, my Neurologist started treating me for Fibromyalgia in mid to late October until I could get the “official” diagnosis. It’s taken a few months, but my meds are working. By working, I mean my daily pain level is down from a 7-8 to 2-3 and after what I been through the past two years, I can live with that. After a couple surgeries and multiple stem cell injections to my feet, I am truly ready to step 180º in the other direction and move forward.
As I begin getting educated on my condition, I feel a bit of a contradiction: I’m supposed to stop living the life I’ve always lived, but yet, I’m supposed to work to get back as much of what I lost as I can. I know an expert would say it’s more nuanced than that, but it’s how I understand the therapeutic goals as I flail early on in this process taking it one day at a time.
Little D asked why I had to go back to the A.T. and my answer is totally different from years past. For the last two years, I’ve been a physical train wreck and the last year was an emotional one as well. My life has always been a physical one and I have loved every minute of it. But, with Fibromyalgia, my life going forward will need to change in some ways. I truly believe that much of what I did hiking wise can be done again, or maybe there’s a new passion to replace it with I really don’t know, and after some time to rage and grieve, a few nuggets of clarity have emerged. Hiking and all my time outdoors is who I am. It is a way of being connected with myself and the world around me and I have to continue to move forward as long as I am able. So essentially my goal remains to live vibrantly.
On January 5th, yes you read that right, I will leave KC for Chattanooga. My friend Jere and I will head to the trail the next morning to repeat what we started together in 2015.
I will also be on Instagram: 3Mile_ where most of you follow me.
So Here’s to Now